friday night

so here I am at home on a friday night at 10:56 or so. It has been a long time! wow. It feels so good and so horrible at the same time. Not that I am sitting here crying and thinking I have no life, more that my back is almost broke in two and standing up is an adventure in it's self. I threw it out at work...workers comp!! lol....well yea, it really sucks and I honestly wish i was in a hot tub right now, and I could be other then that neil took two hours to call and say i should come over! blasted! So here I sit in my bed with my new best friend "dutchie's baby" (thats my lap top) sitting apon my comforter, with a hot water bottle between my back and my pillow. oh so comfy at the moment...but...not for long. Well here I sit with the world and my finger tips and never wanted more to be sleeping peacfully. I pray that sleep will come easy, but I know that chances are slim. When I pictured my life here, 2 months from my trip, I wouldn't have invisioned this. But then again there are a lot of things I would have thought to be different in my life. Like...who it is that I would be hanging out with after highschool. Its weird that the people you hungout with the most in highschool, you never really see again. And those that were just friends on and off, you see every week. Take for instance. Andrew. Andrew and I were ok friends. We really didnt have many classes together ever, and hanging out with him at lunch was a rare treat. Most lunches I found my self sitting uncomfortably against a hallway wall, staring blanky at another wall. Sitting beside people I talked to often and chilled with a lot. Now almost 5 months since that moment here I am in a life were I havent seen Neil, Grant, Drew or B in probably 2 months. And again here I am in a life where if I dont see Andrew in 4 days i feel empty. Weird how highschool is so different from real life. Were I accually have to make some effort to hangout with people, they wont just show up at my door every morning looking to chill. Ah highschool, dont me miss it? not.

Wow

Check check check it out! WOW. What an amazing sight. This place is awesome...

Antigua

Here is Antigua....ah i'm gonna love it

The fact

in spite of the fact that i still have about 3 months to go I still feel like I have way longer. The last 3 months have gone so fast, and I can only pray that these next ones do to. So I think to myself when you embrace time as a gift does it go faster, and when you wish it to speed up and pass me does it go slower. Well in the next week couple weeks I will try out embracing this time I have here and see if it works. But then you think if you get to a point where you want to embrace time and have it slow down what is the use cause it only goes faster and you have no acual time to embrace. So do I love this time and have it fly by, or do I continue to hate it here and watch it drag on...i have my answer.

This chance

It's slowly coming...counting down the days..to when I step off of canadian ground and enter the plane that will take me away from here. Away from all I know, away from everything here, away from all the smiling faces I know, away from the feeling of your hug. I really just want to leave this place now. For I know there will always be things I will miss, no matter where I'm leaving. But I just need to get out of this town. I cant wait for the jets that will bring me to my new life, bring me to new faces, to a new feeling of love. I know I will miss this place, and I know I will be back.
2 months 11 days to my departure...to my good bye.

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You guys!!

AH...man I'm gonna miss you all. I'm just trying to spend this short time I still have to just soak up all the love I can get. So here are my shout outs...

Danny: I'm gonna miss you the most I think. You are always here for me, ready to hangout and chill.
Ashley: You are amazing! I'm gonna miss our kisses. (lol, inside joke)
Andrew: You mean so much to me...our weekly visits will commence again once I'm back! Miss ya
COCO: Ah my dear. I love you so much, you better be waiting with open arms once I'm back.
Justin: Dont forget about me.
MY VCC chicks: Be ready for LOTS! of hugs when I get back.
My FVC and NSS boys: You are all so great...the cruisin wont be the same with out the one girl i know!!!

Dont stop the love even though I'll be thousands of miles away, I love you guys!

Luggage

hey..well its getting cool. I bought my luggage today it was crazy!!! Its blue and sweet and I got a matching carrier for my lap top and I might go back and get a matching bag for my sleeping stuff...yea!! Wow this is getting really weird...fabric and plastic re-enforcement is making me happy....sad.

I counted...2 months 22days!

So 2 months 22 to day to go. Still seems like a long time. So I have found creative ways to make this time pass really fast! I leave for Edmonton in 35 days. I'm going to visit my beloved Kings buddies! It's gonna be sweet! I cant wait. I figured that if I split these next two months in half its gonna go a lot faster, cause once I'm back from Kings I'll really only have a month to go! WOW! now that sounds sweet! Well I should go get ready for work..ttyl.

3 months to go

Hey well here we are. It is 3 months to departure. And I a getting antsy...man i just want to get on the plane. Ah...well there is not much else to say other then here is my blog. So this is where you are able to check up on me and see what I have been up to. I was gonna have a sight where you would be able to just look at all the pictures I will be taking down there, but then I realized that then I would have to waist time on uploading all my pictures on to the internet. So here is how this is gonna work. When i get a chance to up date this I will be adding pictures aswell, just so you can see what I'm up to alittle. Well cya around...